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I don’t belong here.

29 Aug


Pretty, but emotionally toxic.

Today I realized that I do not feel like I belong in Spokane.  As I explained to a friend, I came here to make changes, but this is a city where people settle instead of change.  I do not settle.

The entire impetuous for moving here was to take advantage of the low cost of living while I began working on the prerequisites for the degree program I want.  After weeks of maddening phone calls, today the community college finally admitted they are too understaffed to process my financial aid application in time for the fall quarter, so there is absolutely no chance I’ll get so much as a student loan until winter.  Without financial aid, I can’t go to school.  If I can’t go to school, there is absolutely no reason for me to be in Spokane.

It’s been an incredibly frustrating couple of weeks, but I just assumed that everything would get worked out.  I applied months ago, and I’ve been on top of all the necessary paperwork and I’ve been very proactive about calling.  How hard is it to get into community college?  Today I had to abandon those assumptions and reassess.

What I want to do now is get a small business loan or a personal loan or whatever it takes to get my business off the ground.  If I can give myself a few months to focus on this, I think I’ll have something that will support me by the end of the year.  If I can make this happen, Spokane will be a very good place to be for the next few months while I build my income potential.

This is a huge departure from my original plan, but it’s very much in line with what I want for myself: interesting, location-independent work.  Before I’ve always had an excuse not to pursue this, but I’m quickly running out of excuses.  Initially this felt like a set-back, but I’m starting to see the potential.


What I’m Building

21 Dec
Presolana, Lombardy, Italian Alps
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Reverb10: Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?)  (Author: Jenny Blake)

My future self?  I think I’m too literal for this, so instead I’ll just describe my future self.  In five years I’ll be 31, which seems unnecessarily committed to adulthood.  I plan to return to school next fall, so five years from now I will finally be done with school and beginning my career.  (Well, second career.  I’m committed to teaching skiing and will likely continue to do it year after year.  However, a seasonal job does not pay the bills.)  I’d like to take a program at Bastyr University, but at the end of 2015, I’ll probably be ready to leave Seattle and begin my next adventure.

I’m returning to college, something I’ve never particularly enjoyed, because I think it will give me the tools I need to create an income from teaching people to love food.  Right now I cook food, which certainly feeds people, but doesn’t go far enough to create the lasting love I create when I teach people to ski.  I want to help people use food in both healthy and joyful ways — that is what I want to build in the next in five years.

And once I finish school and begin establishing my career, I want to begin planning my next adventure.  I’m on the last leg of the fabulous Tahoe adventure, and there will be one more between here and the Seattle adventure.  I want a location-independent career, so I never have to settle.  In five years I want to decide between the Italian Alps, or the Canadian Rockies, or somewhere I have yet to even imagine.

Thirty-one might be more adult than I’d like, but it might also be a beginning.

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Empire Building

13 Dec
The Roman Empire by 271 AD
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Reverb10: Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

This year is about building, more specifically building my empire.  Right now I think that money, accountability, and education are the biggest things I can do to build my empire.

I need a clearer picture of what I have and what I’m going to do with it.  The next step is to make a spreadsheet of my expenses and financial goals.  I’ll need to review that, and my actual account balances nightly to make sure I’m on track.

It’s time to go back to school.  I enjoy what I do, but it does not facilitate empire-building — I can do better.  The next step is to decide which school is right for me and apply.  Next will come chats with a guidance counselor to make sure I have reasonable expectations, and setting up financial aid.

I need just a little more structure.  Simple things like the financial spreadsheet, a deadline calendar for school, and a daily to-do list will probably be enough.  I am the person I am accountable to, so it’s time to implement these things.

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