Aside

My Internet Dependency Is Okay!

22 Nov
Murloc

Besides, I stopped using the internet for escapism years ago.

I essentially went a week without the internet when my computer died.  (I did have my Ipod Touch, but I used it sparingly because I couldn’t charge it.)  During that week I caught myself thinking that I should be just fine without the internet and wondering if it was healthy to be so dependent on technology.  It was an interesting insight to an aspect of my core story that I haven’t really examined yet: apparently I think the internet (all of the internet, no exceptions) is nothing but a means of escapism and I should be strong enough not to need it.

This is exactly why I’m rewriting my core story.  Now that I’ve brought that belief into the light I can see it for the craziness and hypocrisy that it is.  Obviously there are plenty of ways to waste time online, but just as obviously that’s not all that’s possible and that’s certainly not all that I do with the internet.  I use the internet because it is a useful tool.

I also realized that I’d unwittingly picked that idea up from a few friends and family members who feel intimidated by computers and the internet and that makes them feel a little insecure.  They’re dealing with their own “shoulds” on the matter, and their disparaging comments are a means of justifying their choice not to use these tools, not a criticism of me or my actions.

No one has ever suggested that I am too dependent on these things; I intercepted their self-talk and internalized it and let it influence me.   I don’t need to feel insecure about my enthusiasm for all the internet has to offer; it’s a useful tool, and I’m very happy I have a beautiful new machine to enjoy it with.

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What messages have you intercepted and internalized?  Have they helped you or hindered you?

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One Response to “My Internet Dependency Is Okay!”

  1. Dryalantha November 22, 2011 at 3:02 AM #

    I know the feeling! Not because my computer died but because I’m very sensitive to migraines. Last weekend I was doing some online gaming and KABOOM, migraine for 2 days. Now I know I have to be careful! Not only with foods, stress but also with the internet. It’s such a great tool to work with but for me it’s not very healthy to use the computer the whole day… to be honest, I wish I could! But my body is telling me other things and I have to listen… 🙂

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