There are several moments, all of them important.
The first moment was less a moment and more a season; I made real progress with my skiing last winter and it showed itself in my ability to ski steeper, scarier terrain. I was able to enjoy some terrain that I never thought I’d be able to ski. I made some new mental connections and clarified exactly what I’m trying to do when I teach my own lessons*. I love skiing more than anything else and it shows.
Another moment came after taking some drugs and spending the evening in bed. I felt an incredibly strong connection to both my body and my partner and I want those connections (not necessarily that partner) to become a frequent part of my life.
The last moment also involved sex; a couple of months ago I had amazing chemistry with a casual encounter. I felt very comfortable trying new things and taking a few risks with him. I had a wonderful time with him and feel our night was something I’ve needed.
All three of these incidents brought me closer to my body via some sort of risk. I am not suggesting that I should make 2011 the year of stupidity and recklessness, but I need to pay more attention to my body and I need to be less afraid to take a few chances. I’ll be okay; I’ll actually probably be better.
*I am trying to teach people to use their bodies to find the same joy I do. I don’t want my clients to walk away with a few pleasant memories; I want them to walk away fully addicted and in love.