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Every Day Scattershot

29 Jul
Myrmicaria brunnea feeding on sugar crystals

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So I want to write in this space every day.  Right now I’m breaking it down a bit until it becomes habitual: every day for a week and then we’ll see what’s next.

I’m also doing this with refined sugar.  I love both baking and eating, and I was taking a cake decorating class, so that meant I was consuming far more sugar than felt good.   Unlike blogging, I have no intention of making the lack of sugar a routine, but I do want see how it feels to have less of it for some time.  I wasn’t sure I’d be able to even go a week, but this is day three, and while I do want it, I’m just fine without actually having it.

I’m in a finishing state of mind.  I’m completing knitting projects, focusing on getting school settled, and incorporating more structure into my day.  I’m also spending some time reading books I’ve yet to finish, and tidying my physical space.  I tend to do these things when I’m about to start something new or make a big change, so even my subconscious is ready for whatever comes next.

I am always ready to rush progress and I become restless when it doesn’t happen fast enough, but I need to remember that the day-to-day small actions are how I will arrive at my destination.  Every day, no exceptions.

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Destination

29 Jul

I moved to Spokane, WA in May.  After living here for over two months, I feel like I’m settling in my destination.  I’m here so I can go back school while enjoying a low cost of living not available in Tahoe or Seattle, my next destination.  I have clear, measurable goals here and those keep me focused and remind me of why I have upended my life.

Since moving here I only have one job.  Part of the reason I decided to go back to school was because I was overworking myself (70+ hours a week) in my efforts to actually pay bills and ski enough.  I did not ski enough, and while I did pay bills, I still wasn’t able to save anything.  Something needed to change, and I’m glad I have a more normal schedule.  Still, it’s strange to have just one source of income.  Despite the lower cost of living and the higher rate of pay, I still don’t feel secure; I want to diversify my income stream.

And that’s why I’m writing this.  I spend huge amounts of time online and I use the internet for what seems to be a wide variety of things, but is really just one thing: I connect to other people.  I read their ideas, watch as they solve problems, expose myself to different opinions, keep informed about our shared world, and so much more.

I’ve been doing this aimlessly for years, thoroughly enjoying the journey.  That’s not enough though, there needs to be a destination.  I want to create a real community for myself; I want to find my people and offer what I can to our community.  I want to develop real relationships and learn what I can create with the people I meet.  I want to create things that are me, and I want to collaborate.

I don’t think this destination is fully formed, but at least it’s not just an aimless journey anymore.

Direction

28 Dec
Retro Video Game Cupcake Tower
Image by clevercupcakes via Flickr

Reverb10: Achieve. What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.  (Author: Tara Sophia Mohr)

Building.  Empire.  Direction.  I think those are the three words I’m going to use as focal points in 2011.  As I’ve said before, 2011 is to be a building year, and I plan to build an empire.  But building an empire is a vague goal, so just what am I trying to achieve?

Direction.  I don’t want to aim my life at one specific goal and simply work toward it — what will happen when I achieve it?  Instead I want to point my energies in the direction of the life I want for myself and let everything flow the right way.  I think having a clear direction will make me feel purposeful and determined.

So, ten things I can do to achieve those feelings immediately?

  1. Clearly define my direction.
  2. Monitor my finances.
  3. Clean the house.
  4. Make January’s donation.
  5. Tidy the car.
  6. Take car in for maintenance.
  7. Identify this season’s skiing goals.
  8. Make a dentist appointment.
  9. Plan a meeting with my boss at the restaurant.
  10. Call Amy.

Let’s see what I can achieve.

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Empire Building

13 Dec
The Roman Empire by 271 AD
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Reverb10: Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

This year is about building, more specifically building my empire.  Right now I think that money, accountability, and education are the biggest things I can do to build my empire.

Money
I need a clearer picture of what I have and what I’m going to do with it.  The next step is to make a spreadsheet of my expenses and financial goals.  I’ll need to review that, and my actual account balances nightly to make sure I’m on track.

Education
It’s time to go back to school.  I enjoy what I do, but it does not facilitate empire-building — I can do better.  The next step is to decide which school is right for me and apply.  Next will come chats with a guidance counselor to make sure I have reasonable expectations, and setting up financial aid.

Accountability
I need just a little more structure.  Simple things like the financial spreadsheet, a deadline calendar for school, and a daily to-do list will probably be enough.  I am the person I am accountable to, so it’s time to implement these things.

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Eliminate! Eliminate!

11 Dec
Imperial Daleks
Image by Kaptain Kobold via Flickr

Reverb10: Eleven Things. What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life? (Author: Sam Davidson)

  1. People who do not appreciate me or treat me with care and respect.

    How will I eliminate this? I need to pay more attention to what people are bringing to my life and strengthen the positive relationships and eliminate the ones that drain me.

    What will this change? I spend too much time trying to fix things and worrying about how to make things work; relationships are not one-sided and I cannot make them work without the cooperation of the other person. If it’s not a collaborative effort to treat each other well and create a mutually supportive relationship, then it needs to go.

  2. The word should.

    How will I eliminate this? I get too caught up in my own expectations. I am a bit of a perfectionist, which is helpful in some circumstances, but is generally destructive. Instead, I’d like to start reminding myself of my goals and thinking about potential next steps. Any step forward is good, not just the steps I “should” be taking.

    What will this change? I think having the discipline to work toward my goals with the sense to be flexible will serve me far better than nitpicking what I “should” do.

  3. Clutter of any kind.

    How will I eliminate this? The first step is to go though everything completely. I’m actually very close with this — one more box and two more bags and I’ll be done. Beyond that is simple maintenance: monitor every thing that comes into my life and either find a use for it or let it go.

    What will this change? Clutter is a distraction at best and a form of self-sabotage at worst. I want my home to be an atmosphere conducive to living and building. Clutter in my home clutters my mind and demands my attention — if only so I can be irritated with it. I want a clear, calm place to start from, inside and out.

  4. Limits on my imagination.

    How will I eliminate this? Not a clue. I’m not even entirely sure what I mean, but it stuck with me as I was making this list.

    What will this change? I do think having a bigger imagination will help me see more ways to move forward, which can only help.

  5. Loneliness.

    How will I eliminate this? I think the first two items on this list are the best ways to go about eliminating loneliness. I certainly have enough relationships of varying types, but being more mindful of what I want and what I am building with someone else will be helpful.

    What will this change? I think it will give me a better sense of boundaries and keep me from becoming too dependent on the people I am closest too.

  6. Lack of dedication to my own well-being.

    How will I eliminate this? All I need to do is listen to my body and my emotions and act on what I need. I can already hear the messages, but I’m not following through.

    What will this change? Taking care of myself? It can only make me healthier in every way.

  7. Doubt in my own spark.

    How will I eliminate this? I have amazing self-confidence, but only in what I already am. When it comes to building and moving forward I frequently doubt my abilities or my chances of success. I’m not sure I can eliminate the doubt, but I can move on in spite of it.

    What will this change? If I can get past the doubt, I can try new things and build my empire. Settling for what I have, as good as much of it is, is not enough.

  8. Withdrawing.

    How will I eliminate this? I can remember to ask for help. I have many people willing to listen and provide hugs, and those seemingly little things can make a big difference. And even if I need something bigger, there might be someone willing and able to provide it, if they know I need it.

    What will this change? I can spend less time handling problems or recovering from difficult situations and more time moving forward. Withdrawing almost always means holding still, or a lateral movement at best, and that’s not what I’m trying to do.

  9. Disorder

    How will I eliminate this? Even a loose plan and a modicum of preparation make a huge difference for me. I don’t have to devote my life to planning and I don’t have to worry when things don’t go in a way I was prepared for, but a little structure makes a big difference.

    What will this change? Disorder, much like clutter and withdrawing, is a huge time-suck. I do not have unlimited time so I want to use it in ways that serve me.

  10. Unevaluated expectations.

    How will I eliminate this? It’s actually not that hard — all I have to do is pay attention to what I’m actually expecting to get out of a situation or experience with a person. (I came across this idea at Enter: Adulthood a few days ago, and it’s already proven helpful.)

    What will this change? Being aware of what I expect will make things easier. It will save me the disappointment of not getting something I didn’t know I wanted and it will make it easier for me to communicate and plan. Unspoken expectations make for unpleasant surprises.

  11. Fear-based decisions.

    How will I eliminate this? I tend to make fear-based decisions when something must be changed immediately, but I’m not prepared to make a change. Eliminating disorder from my life will help. Having faith in my own spark will help. Removing limits on my imagination will help. Evaluating my expectations will help. I will get there.

    What will this change? Is fear ever a good foundation? I was at a Quaker meeting a few months ago, and someone felt moved to say that there are only two forces in the universe: fear and love. I’ll never fully eliminate fear, but I do not want to build upon it.

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